Last post was December 10th. That evening I took my husband to the hospital and well, it's a long story but we just finished up iv antibiotics yesterday. We have more CT scans, blood work, oncologist appointments, and all the etc. that is a part of cancer. Next week we will know which chemo treatment he'll begin - again.
One of the prevalent feelings is the lack of control. This is not the direction we want to go and we can't seem to find a way to get a detour through the dark valley. But there is One Who promises that even though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, there's no need to fear any evil because He is with us. So, even if I can't control all the terrible things I see happening to my husband, I know that God is with us. He says He hears our prayers and He bottles all our tears. Couldn't make it without Him.
But He's also blessed us with the best family and friends. They are always there to help, to hug, to text words of love and encouragement. What a huge blessing - they help carry this heavy burden. Couldn't make it without them.
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| I adore him a little too much for my own good. |
The man is a former military officer - he does not allow tears. So, that has to happen alone. He said, "Baby, where is your faith? I will walk through this; even if no one else has, then I will be the first." And then he played this horrible song for me....cracked me up: Don't Cry for Louie
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| In Case You Didn't Know by Brett Young |
It is a simple matter to make a meal and sit at the table with your family but it is one of the vital elements for a happy, loving life. If you have the opportunity to choose between drive-thru eaten in the SUV and homemade potato soup around the table - choose that which allows you to look your loved ones in the eyes and gives you time to let them know what a treasure they are to you. Life is short; way too short.
And to the doctor who said twice today, "The prognosis isn't good." What the hell does she know? We didn't ask her opinion nor for her prognosis. We just keep moving forward as always.
